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April 10, 2013

people aren’t like apple products, though sometimes i wish they were

by maria polonchek

Back when I was single (and a Christian) I made a list of qualities I was looking for in my future partner to help God out. (Does an all-knowing God need a list? Does he mind if I keep adding things? Do I need to meet the qualifications of the other person’s list? These are not questions I asked myself.) I got the idea from a book I read on dating as a Christian. This could not have been the author’s point, but somehow the message I took from it was that if I made this list and waited long enough and prayed hard enough, God would deliver the guy I was hoping for, custom-built, like the Project Red, engraved, already-loaded-with-all-of-my-old-CD’s, 2nd Generation iPod Nano that the guy who became my actual husband gave me for Christmas one year.

Alas, a man spontaneously constructed from the list never appeared. But, luckily, my actual husband is way more interesting than what I was coming up with. He has a few key qualities I was hoping for—smart, funny, adventurous, plays the violin (I’m pretty detail-oriented)—but also comes with a few surprises. Sometimes the surprises are fun. He can do a cartwheel! He knows how to juggle! Often they help me evolve. I have a new appreciation for the three original Star Wars. I am no longer a Christian making lists for an all-knowing God. Sometimes they piss me off. Does the volume of this action movie have to be so high? How many times is it possible to lose and find your keys?

These surprises were helpful, because the children we went on to have are also different than the children I imagined. Two of them are boys. The girl looks nothing like me. All of them are perpetually sticky.

My friends, too. I couldn’t begin to piece together the combination of qualities that fall in place to make them who they are. Don’t even ask about the rest of my family: parents, siblings, cousins…Who ordered this?

skirts, yes. people, no.

Thanks to the Internet, as a consumer I’m used to getting what I want, when I want it. A few months ago, I had a vision, googled “tea-length ivory tulle skirt,” and ordered one in my size on Etsy a few minutes later. I followed that search with “black mohair short-sleeve tee” and got one on sale at Gap.com. Finally, I found a “sparkly elastic metallic belt” on Amazon and put it all together a few nights later for a holiday party.

When I tried on the skirt for my husband, he was confused and asked, “Do people do this?” He got his answer at the party when the skirt was greeted with an enthusiastic response. I guess sometimes I surprise him, too.

It’s okay to want what I want in anything I can order on my Mac. But in actual relationships with actual people…surprise is inevitable.

And rolling with it is key.

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June 25, 2012

girls of summer

by maria polonchek

I’ve probably spent more time in a bathing suit than most people. I didn’t grow up near the beach or anything—far from it, actually, in Kansas. But as soon as I could swim, which was early, I spent all day, every day at the local public pool, from the minute it opened Memorial Weekend until the minute it closed on Labor Day.

My sister and I famously (for our small-town, anyway) ate and slept in our bathing suits when we were little. My mom liked this program because it meant less laundry and she just encouraged us to take them off once in a while so that our you-know-whats could breathe.

We wore one-pieces. (Now I call them “tanks.” Classy people call them “maillots.”) My mom didn’t like it when young girls wore bikinis. One summer, when I was getting up there in age, elementary-school-wise, I talked her into letting me get some sort of strange contraption that was technically a one-piece, but with a hole cut out of the stomach and back. This was in the eighties. I can’t remember what those silly things were called.

The next year, I got a real “two piece.” It was a sports-bra-style top and modest-cut bottoms. Lime green and blacks stripes, I remember. By the time I was in high school, I was wearing proper bikinis. Until, that is, I became a lifeguard at 16 and went back to one-pieces for the dress-code.

I was a lifeguard for 3 years, until my certificate expired. Again, I was wearing a bathing suit night and day. I would wear the one-piece to work, and then change into a bikini to “lay out” on my break. (Maybe there is a post about sun-cancer in my future?)

Anyway, since the time I changed my mom’s mind about them in high-school, bikinis have been no-brainers for me, even when I was pregnant with twins. When it’s hot, I find the least amount of fabric the most comfortable, plain and simple. It may sound like I don’t have my share of body-image issues or lack self-consciousness. On the contrary, I have all of that and, like many women, annually reach a point in late Spring where I’m determined to look my best ever in a suit and do away with “problem areas” once and for all. But Spring is just so good for cocktails and grilling and block parties, so I eat and drink and have a blast and put on my old bikinis, stare at my thighs and tummy in the mirror and think, “It is what it is. At least I had fun.”

I might feel a bit embarrassed the first time or two out in my bikini for the season, but I easily slip into a comfortableness that must come from spending so much darn time over the years in a suit. And it dawned on me that our attitudes about swimwear may reveal something about our attitudes in general.

We were recently on the coast in Florida, where the temperature was in the 90′s and the humidity was so high that our towels were NEVER. DRY. Everyone on the island was in a bathing suit everywhere and it got me thinking about style. I know there are suits out there designed to hide or, at least, minimalize “problem areas.” (I like to think of my “problem areas” as “relatively normal areas,” though.) I’ve seen other people wear these styles and I sincerely think they are flattering and, for the most part, do what they promise to do. So, if you are one of those people who wears a suit designed to “flatter your figure,” trust me, if I saw you, I would think you look great and admire your classiness. (And I mean you, too, Andy-in-your-banana-hammock!)

However, if you read this blog, you know that my approach in life (and swimwear) is more, “I’m putting everything out there. People will see my strengths AND weaknesses and maybe they’ll dig it, maybe they won’t. But they’ll certainly know what they’re getting.” I’ve tried several figure-flattering cuts and I feel like a big phony in all of them. Here are a few examples:

  • Underwire Cups

Hello. I have to wear something up top, but please don’t look at my chest. I didn’t want you to look even when I had GREAT tits (Oh, if I had it to do over!) and I especially don’t want you to now. They have been engorged with breastmilk, to the extent that I could touch them with my chin, so many times that I now need a cold, hard, metal support spiking me in the armpit to prop up my boobs so that they don’t graze my belly. Whoops! A piece of wrinkly-loose- elephant-skin just slipped out the top! Let me just tuck that back in. What were we saying?

  • Ruching

I’d rather cover my midsection with three extra layers of synthetic fabric that feels like a girdle when it’s dry and then bunches and sags when it’s wet than let the folds of my belly show when I’m crouching over to get Cheddar Bunnies out of the pool. Oh, I’m not supposed to get this swim suit wet? What was I thinking, planning on getting wet at a pool? Never mind that it’s hot outside and the whole point of swimming is to cool off, I’d rather sit in the shade, constantly tugging and adjusting yards of material over my torso. Hey, Mr. Creepy-Swimming-Pool-Guy-with-the-Mustache. Can I borrow that knife in the back pocket of your cut-off-denim-shorts so I can slice open my bathing suit because I AM SUFFOCATING!!!!!

  • Swim Skirts

Um, hi. I have saddle-bags and cellulite. I have since puberty, so I don’t think they’re going away in my thirties. I’m trying to cover it all in a skirt that makes my hips look even wider than they are after having three babies. At least the cellulite is contained to my ass now, instead of spreading to my wrists, like it did when I was pregnant with my third. You didn’t know someone could develop cellulite on her wrists? Well, she can. And it’s not pretty. There is no bathing suit made today that covers up cellulite on your wrists. Thank God it went away after I had the baby. I’m hardly worried about dimples on my thighs at this point.

You know me by now, so you know I don’t mean to sound cheesy, old-fashioned, or goody-two-shoes with this next thing, but honestly? The one person I hope to impress with my body on a regular basis is the man who sees me naked every day, anyway. There is no tricking him with flattering styles. So that leaves….my kids I’m trying to impress? Ha. Other women? I’m not too worried about what other women think and here’s why: I have a feeling they are also busy feeling insecure. I realized this after years of getting compliments on my eyebrows. Women like my eyebrows and want to know if I pluck them, where I get them “done,” if they are “natural.” Before these compliments came in, I never even noticed I had eyebrows. Who looks at eyebrows? I would think, as I stared at the perfectly straight, uniform, white teeth of the woman complimenting me on my eyebrows. Why teeth? Because mine are flawed. And I’m self-conscious about them and think everyone must have better teeth than me. And I think we’re doing it all over again to one another in our bathing suits, no matter what the cut or style.

To the self-assured, confident woman who is judging me, thinking “doesn’t she know how she looks?” and never questions her own choices: Can I have the name of your therapist?

I got mine in Radio Red. This is what I look like in it. (In my mind.) (www.jcrew.com)

So, what do I wear? Here is the JCrew suit I ordered this year. No, this post is NOT sponsored by JCrew, but if you are a JCrew rep for Women’s Swimwear and you are interested in advertising on this blog, I can guarantee you….five…yes, FIVE readers a day. Except one of them is Katie’s dad, so I don’t know if he counts as the demographic you’re looking for.

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February 9, 2012

the well-dressed samaritan

by maria polonchek
  1. You are driving your kids home from school when you notice a body lying diagonally across the sidewalk. It isn’t moving. A shoe has fallen off.  No one else is around, which is odd, because school has just gotten out and the body is in front of the building.
  2. Without hesitation, you pull into the first parking space. You are trying to hurry, but it takes several minutes to explain to your two 6-yr-olds and one 2-year-old why they have to stay in the car. There is a person on the sidewalk. No, she isn’t dead. Yes, she might be hurt. No, you can’t come and watch. Because it isn’t polite to crowd around a person who’s lying on the sidewalk. Yes, we’ll call for help.  No, you can’t come and watch.  Yes, you can stick your head out the window to see. No, you can’t climb out of the window. Yes, just your head. No, not your arms. Please take care of your sister. No, you can’t come and watch.
  3. You finally make it to the body. A man has gotten there, too. He has called 911. The body belongs to an Asian woman and she looks pretty old. Like, old enough that it’s not as surprising that she’s lying there and her shoe has fallen off. She doesn’t speak much English. She’s shivering.
  4. You immediately take off your jacket and cover her. You ask if she’s cold. She says no. You ask if she’s hurt. She says no. You ask if she can move. She says no. You rub her thin arms lightly, afraid that touching her might hurt her, but wanting her to know she isn’t alone.
  5. You tell her she isn’t alone.
  6. You ask if you can hold her hand. She says yes. You take her hand, but it doesn’t respond to your grasp. You hold on anyway.
  7. You tell her she isn’t alone.
  8. After what feels like a Very Long Time, you finally hear the sirens. Three small heads are cramming against each other out of your car window to see the ambulance and the woman on the sidewalk and their bumbling mother, who never knows if she’s doing the right thing.
  9. The man leaves after answering some questions from the ambulance guys. You feel strange about leaving. You want everyone to exchange information so you can get together and talk about what happened or something. But the ambulance guys thank you for your help and tell you that you can leave.
  10. (One of them is pretty cute. Yes, you are happily married and a woman is lying on the ground, but that doesn’t mean you don’t notice if a man in uniform is good-looking.)
  11. You walk towards the car. The six eyes are watching you.
  12. You remember the jacket you covered the woman with is one of your faves. It’s from J Crew.
  13. Technically, you got it on e-Bay, but still, it was New Without Tags.
  14. You turn around and watch. The woman is still lying on the ground. The ambulance guys are asking her how old she is, if she knows where she is, what’s her name. She is still covered in your camel tweed jacket with leather buttons and gold silk lining with fuschia trim. You really want that jacket back.
  15. You turn back around to the car. The kids are watching. It seems rude to take a jacket off a person who’s 75, shivering, and barely conscious.
  16. You hem and haw. You don’t know what to do. Do you ask for your jacket back now? Do you get some info from the ambulance guys, saying you want to visit her in the hospital, but really, it’s because you want to get your jacket back? Do you get in the car and drive away and feel better about yourself because people are more important than clothes from J Crew that you technically got on eBay, but are New Without Tags?
  17. You drop your shoulders and slink back towards the ambulance guys.  You catch the eyes of the cute one. (This is so embarrassing.) You ask if she’s going to be OK. He says yes. You ask if there is anything else you can do. He says no. He thanks you for your help (again) (for the second time) and tells you can can go.
  18. You lower your head and dig the toe of your shoe into the grass. The thing is, you say, ummm…I covered her with my jacket.
  19. He says, that was nice of you.
  20. You say, well, the thing is, I was wondering if I could have my jacket back. It’s from J Crew. I mean, I bought it on eBay, but still, it was New Without Tags.
  21. He grins. (He really IS cute.) You want your jacket? he asks. Yes, you say. It’s just that it’s my favorite jacket and I don’t want her to be cold but I thought maybe you guys had some blankets or something. Or, I could go to my house and get a blanket and then take my jacket.
  22. We have blankets, he says, and walks over and plucks the jacket off her like she isn’t a 75-year-old, fragile, thin, disoriented woman who is lying on a sidewalk in the middle of Palo Alto on a sunny day, shivering.
  23. It’s a nice jacket, he says, still grinning.
  24. You take the stupid jacket, go back to the car, not sure what sort of example you just set for your three children, still watching, with their heads crammed out the window.

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